Friday, December 15, 2006

4 Months

Jordan is 4 months today, last night I spent some time looking over his photo’s and it amazes me how quickly he is growing. The other day I heard someone mention somewhere something that happened in October and I sat there dumbfounded, where was October. Did we have October this year? Where was I?

It feels as though I’ve missed September, October and a little of November, I can’t remember anything that happened in those months as they are a blur.

These days I’m enjoying Jordan much more, actually we are enjoying each other. I can’t wait to wake in the morning and greet him as I look forward to every day I spend with him. There has been a big shift in how I feel as a Mother, care giver and my feelings towards Jordan. Loving him goes with out saying, but enjoying him and cherishing his smiles, giggles and even his tantrums are a different story.

The first 3 months are tough really tough and I think that the blurry period is a way of protecting yourself from really going insane. A good night sleep is also the key. Jordan is sleeping through the nights now, he has been for about a month now. Off to bed between 8:30 and 9pm and wakes up between 6am to 7:30am.

Today also marks an anniversary of a kind. This day last year I received my first positive beta for Jordan. It was 108, which can be considered as low but still it was a positive beta. A year ago today I didn’t know if I would be lucky enough to carry the pregnancy to term and I didn’t know a lot of things. I thank God with every fiber of my being for the precious gift of my son.

Happy 4 months Jordan!

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Em said...

Mari, he is a little beauty!

Bugsy said...

He is changing so quickly. I feel like every time i see a new picture of him, he has grown. I love hearing how you are growing with him and how you are really enjoying each other now. It warms my heart to hear this. Love to you both.

Eva said...

He is just such a sweetheart. I have enjoyed reading your blog since you were pregnant and am so glad to see how well he's doing and how happy you seem to be his mother! And I can't wait until my Jordan (and his sister Sarah) is also sleeping through the night!

Bugsy said...

I still love to come by and see his smile. Makes me smile too - I can't resist. Hope you are both doing well.
p.s. I have tagged you. See my blog for details