Friday, January 28, 2005


I have my appointment to see Dr N (who is my fertility specialist) and I’m very nervous. I know for sure that he will be asking us what we want to do as the next step, and honestly IVF terrifies me. I’m already used to the monitoring (funny how you get used to these things so quickly when I’ve only had 2 cycles), and Tim and I have worked out a schedule for when b/t and u/s are being done. He drops me off at the clinic and afterwards I walk to the train station to go to work.

There was a time where Tim has out right refused to even think about IVF as he doesn’t want to go in and drop a sample of on demand. I think that he still feels this way, but I haven’t breached the IVF subject with him again.

Seeing as both the OI cycles have worked, that is I’ve fallen pg both times (and have had M/c both times), I would like to continue with OI as it has worked so far. Plus the first time I saw Dr Nick it was agreed that we would do 3 OI cycles and I haven’t done the third one yet. I’m taking Provera in the preparation of bringing AF on to start my third one.

I haven’t discussed this with Tim but IUI is also something that he will NOT want to do…unless he can do his sample business at home and I take it in with me. But I don’t know if this clinic allows samples being done at home.

I also know that Dr Nick will say to me to loose weight and I’ve started back on my diet (today…thanks Bugsy for the inspiration). So I can report to him that I’m trying, but I don’t want to wait. I want to ask Dr Nick why he hasn’t prescribed me metformin to help regulate my cycles.

So Monday is milestone for me and I’m nervous, I want answers too of why does he think that I fell pg twice but lost them both times. Why are my little ones not sticking…do you think that I may be asking him a too hard question? Almost like what is the meaning of Life kind of thing?

1 comment:

Bugsy said...

You are going to be great hun. With both the diet and the appointment - I have complete faith in you.

My DH has had to do 2 SA's over the years, and the first he was allowed to do at home. The second they told him had to be done there. He nearly didn't do it, but went and said later that it wasn't as bad as he thought it would be. If it helps you can go with him and help him even, but if he is like my DH he would probably prefer to go on his own. I believe they are very discrete and won't make him feel bad.

What gets me is that our DHs are like this- when you consider what we have to go through, and all they have to do is something they do all the time on their own, except this time it is into a cup. What gives???