My true self

A number of years ago a dear friend of mine suggested a technique of clearing the mind chatter I had.  It was a visualisation exercise where for each thought I had I would put it on a piece of paper, anything and everything about that one thought would be pasted onto that page.  Once done I would then scrunch up that page and then throw that thought over my shoulder. I would continue this process until the page I picked up would be blank.

As this one simple visualisation technique helped me so much I started to expand on the process.  After reading one of my favourite books about a magician teaching their apprentice to use the “room in the mind” I adopted the “Room” concept for my own.

My room is the place I go in my mind to work things out, I wrote this post imagining myself in the field just outside my room.  The room in my mind is a tiny little house that is surrounded by a forest and a river and a beautiful big meadow.

Most recently before I enter my room I remove my outter shell that hides my true self, if only my true self could be that easy to get to as it does in my mind.

Here is what I see:

I am standing in front of my wooden chestnut door that has been carved beautifully with Hungarian symbols, flowers and words.  There is a beam of pure white light just before the threshold and as I step into the beam I feel the over whelming sense of peace consume my soul.

A mirror appears in front of me and I see my true self come forth.  The changes start at the top of my head where my curls become a little tighter the colour and length of my hair remains the same.  The changes to my face are minimal, my worry line disappears, and my laugh lines deepen.  As my true self comes through my cheek bones get more pronounced as the weight comes off.

Simultaneously my true self is showing through, my breast become perkier, my waist becomes more defined my stomach is flat, you can’t see my ribs as that would be going too far.  Nothing else majorly changes as my true self shines through it just that the weight comes off.

Once my true self appears it is then that the door opens and I am allowed into my room.

If anything this exercise always shows me that the only thing that I am unhappy with is my weight and nothing else.